Something thickened. This way blows.
Since walking away from Big Slice of Life, Small Slice of Cheesecake, I've steadily gained weight. Although my "end" weight was pretty much where I started, I felt like I had been making some good realizations about my relationship to food, and my own bad patterns. It was not exactly a screaming success, but as an exercise in not only exploring my own weight issues and developing some new habits, Big Slice was one way to keep my own good health in the forefront of my mind.
And here I am, two years later, with an additional 15 pounds on my frame, and a new host of symptoms that have me frustrated. Swelling legs, hair falling out, weird heart racing baloney, fatigue... don't even get me started.
Two years ago, I wrote The Sin of Omission after attending BlogHer 07. For what it is worth, here's what I looked like, alongside my co-producer Jenifer Scharpen:
photo credit: Karianna
This last weekend, I uploaded my photos from BlogHer 09 - and here's where I'm at now:
Okay, yeah, I know neither of these photos are particularly attractive, but I think it is a pretty good indicator of how puffy and misshapen my face has become, not to mention the rest of me. It isn't a vanity thing, although there's always that part of it, too.
No - I've got a oh-so-slightly out of whack thyroid, and if I'm to believe the note I got from my doctor's office, obstructive sleep apnea, too. On July 9th, I started taking the lowest dosage of synthroid, and despite my doctor's firm - THIS IS NOT A DIET PILL, I sort of hoped that there would be at least a boost of energy, like the very nice pharmacist claimed.
So far, I'm not seeing or feeling any difference. And that is why I'm reviving this blog. I am looking at yet another learning curve on how to work towards a healthy weight, and I need a place to keep track of my progress, or lack thereof. I'm also open to hearing stories or advice on how you're managing your weight while on thyroid medicine and how you treat sleep apnea - especially if you have been able to control it without a CPAP machine because that does NOT sound like it is going to make me a happy camper.
I've got a few books on order, and a rough game plan to follow, and I'm looking forward to taking Small Slice along for the ride.
Comments
I love the photos of the 300 calorie mini-meals---very smart.
you are wonderful.
Posted by: Stephanie O'Dea | August 2, 2009 12:44 PM