A Big "DUH!"
So, I was in a funk, eating poorly, not really getting any aerobic exercise last week, and I felt gross.
Then it dawned on me that I was feeling gross because I was eating poorly and not exercising, not the other way around.
Every day this week, I've taken my vitamins, done my workout, eaten moderately, and gone to bed by 10 pm, and I feel really happy and not even a little gross.
Now, this is one of those times where I want to beat myself on the head - I know, without a doubt, that when I fill my body with empty calories and don't get my heart rate up, I get blue. There is a difference between mindful indulgence (having a nice dessert after a good meal) and mindless grazing (walking around with a bag of halloween candy dangling from your elastic waistband just so it is handy.)
Nothing I want to eat is off-limits. I just have to plan for it, and have a small portion.
I forgot that, and the last week of binge eating was spurred on by mild seasonal blahs and the panic that sets in when you realize that there are special halloween candies on the shelves, and when halloween is over, they won't be there any more. Never mind that they will be there, just in different wrappers. And, um, HELLO! CHRISTMAS! RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER! I have this primal urge to buy buy buy buy buy and eat eat eat eat.
It is really a sickness. I felt horrible after over-indulging. My body has gotten used to small portions, and not a lot of sugary foods. I am grateful that I became ill, because it helped me realize that I can't do that to myself any longer.
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I hear you! I have felt so much better this week, just working out a little and taking my vitamin. What a difference!
Posted by: Jen | October 13, 2006 9:03 AM
Sleep does wonders for me. When I go to bed way too late, I feel it for DAYS.
But the whole see-saw aspect drags me down too. And this week, on the days when it was nice enough to get out and bike, my days were already planned for me, with literally ZERO time for biking.
Posted by: mothergoosemouse | October 13, 2006 9:29 AM
Jenny, I'm glad you posted this because I also spent the last week eating eating eating, and now I feel gross. It was like I couldn't stop, as if I were a bear getting ready to hibernate or something!
Today I dusted off my Weight Watchers stuff and am back on track. I don't care about Halloween candy or Christmas cookies (well, maybe the cookies), I just want to feel good.
Posted by: Elizabeth | October 14, 2006 7:23 AM
I say we just blame last week, it must be a black period for dieters. I also went on a bit of a bender. I have my menus thought out for this week, the food shopping is done and I am ready to refocus.
Posted by: Sher | October 15, 2006 11:42 AM
Wonderful post. I'll be back to read more. Obviously I stay up too late at night...or make that too early-morning? Either way, I'm not getting enough sleep because I'm blog-surfing! Enjoyed your essay and relate to it on every single aspect! I've joined the Diet Naked Team -- and feel like I've happened on to something unique and quite wonderful!!
Posted by: Annie | October 19, 2006 3:27 AM