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I'm sitting here typing away with a stack of three Thin Mints cookies sitting near my elbow. They've been sitting there since earlier this evening when my husband helpfully brought them to me. I haven't decided whether or not to eat them. I certainly haven't eaten much else today.
I have a confession to make. I am really struggling with getting back with the flow of my schedule. There is a chaos to my days, and it interferes with eating well. I've fallen back into the habit of feeding the kids, with the intention of feeding myself at a leisurely pace after they've lost interest. What ends up happening is that I end up skipping meals.
Surprise, surprise. I'm not losing weight because my body is hoarding calories.
I have another confession. I just ate one of the cookies. Mmmmm.
It has been at least a week since I had my regular burst of daily exercise, too. I am seeing a dramatic shift in my moods, and my abililty to bounce back. Earlier this year, I was struggling mightily to keep myself level. I was alternating between frustration and apathy over many of the important tasks I should take pride in. Suspecting seasonal depression, my parents suggested that I see a doctor and find out what I should do.
Several appointments and sessions later, we never figured out exactly what the problem was, but I received some basic good advice on ways to manage my stress, and re-prioritize my workload. I became determined to make some lifestyle changes, returning my wandering focus to a healthy home and family.
Both the therapist and the doctor that I saw recommended a daily 30 minutes of exercise for balance. I've been pretty good about it, until this week. As a result, I've been on edge, forgetful and prone to grab any old food. Physical activity makes all the difference between a successful day, and a day that I end up with cookie crumbs in my cleavage.
Okay, one cookie left. I just ate another.
I've got the grocery store delivering the ingredients for the week ahead tomorrow. Instead of the fantastic bell peppers I had planned, I ate a bowl of soup with sliced french bread and a small salad. And two cookies.
Tomorrow is a new day. I plan on hitting the ground running. I just threw the last cookie away.
Comments
Hi Jenny :)
LOLOLOL yes! I DO love those panties! ;)
I also love your writing style - so real and down-to-earth.
Good for you that you threw away that last cookie, honey! that tells me that you are more than serious about wanting to lose your weight.
Are you blog hopping tonight as well? It's so rewarding to be able to feel this connection with you right here and now. :D Good luck with your exercising (and everything else too).
Posted by: Fat Bitch | August 2, 2006 10:45 PM
It's so hard to get back in the swing, and I imagine you're still coming down from the high of blogher. Hope it gets easier and you start to feel energized again!
Posted by: Kelly-Blended, With Salt | August 3, 2006 5:44 AM
Dieting is a marathon, not a sprint and throwing away that cookie may have been just one small step on your journey, but each one adds up. It is SO hard to stick to a program when you feel your life is a bit out of control; spending the last few days away from home doesn't help. Now, you get to regroup. I know you'll do it!
Posted by: Donna | August 3, 2006 9:30 AM
You're forgiven. : ) The swing is never easy but you'll get back to it soon enough.
There's a pic of us and a little love note at Picture This today. xo
Posted by: tracey | August 3, 2006 1:05 PM
I feel ya! Just got home from vacationing myself...having the same struggle! Nice to know I'm not in this alone. We can do it baby! Thanks for your honesty and silliness all the time!
Posted by: prov31wisemom | August 3, 2006 8:19 PM
Threw away? A Thin Mint?
Now THAT'S willpower. You're far ahead of me.
Posted by: mothergoosemouse | August 4, 2006 6:52 PM
I think you will be able to lose the weight as soon as the stress is relieved. I hope you have family and firends to help you through it all. First take step by step like your children and you'll accomplish any goal you wish. I think it is great of what you are doing, you go girl!!!
Posted by: Samantha | August 14, 2006 2:44 PM
I think you will be able to lose the weight as soon as the stress is relieved. I hope you have family and firends to help you through it all. First take step by step like your children and you'll accomplish any goal you wish. I think it is great of what you are doing, you go girl!!!
Posted by: Samantha | August 14, 2006 2:44 PM
I think you will be able to lose the weight as soon as the stress is relieved. I hope you have family and firends to help you through it all. First take step by step like your children and you'll accomplish any goal you wish. I think it is great of what you are doing, you go girl!!!
Posted by: Samantha | August 14, 2006 2:44 PM
Hi, I'm a mom that is 30yrs old!
with a 7yr old son and a set of twins that are 4yrs old and are boy's as we'll! it is soo hard for me since i lost my driving rights 4yrs ago that i'm always home and when the stress piles high on the bills that need to be payed i eat
i have lost weight and gained back and forth all the time i have no friends that ever come to see me and i have no family really that does anything with me as we'll so yes with feeling alone alot i feel your depression but i can't afford a doctors advise! so i would love to have a eating plan that would work with me so i could at least feel like a women again!
i love my boys and my husband they are the best things that ever happened to me but i just wish i could feel better about getting on a great track in my life for me again
thanks, Tracy
Posted by: Tracy | August 14, 2006 4:16 PM
i total under stand where your coming from i have three kids my self and after i cook and feed them i am to tired to eat and wind up skipping meals and gaining weight thanks for you words they really help
Posted by: april | August 14, 2006 7:16 PM
Hey girls...I just have to join this bandwagon too. This is the first year EVER I have sort of kept a New Years resolution...to lose weight for my "new life" . I have lost 30# since January 1st and I then I lost interest. I stopped journaling. I stopped counting points. I stopped my walks. I rediscovered DQ. I am staring over as if I never started before. I started yesterday. I almost done with my points today and it is only the afternoon. This is so very hard. I am a single mom and want to not only be a good example for my two girls, but a LIVING example as well. (My Mom had 4 angiograms, 3 angioplasties and a heart attack before the age of 50). I want to date but am ashamed of the way I look. Years of mental abuse and neglect have taken its toll. I am trying but could use a couple of pointers to stay on track. The first 6 months were good for me...the last two were not...I have 4 months for my personal goal. HELP!!??
Posted by: imqueenmom | August 15, 2006 1:31 PM
i know how you feel!!!! i have had some injuries this past year and am on lots of meds for them. muscle relaxers relax your stomach as well and you feel hungry!!! my hubby tried to be helpful too. the other day he bought 10 big packs of reeses peanut butter cups for 10 bucks what a bargin huh?? LOL....anyways i came across a program for weight loss last year for cleansing all the junk out of your body and bonus you lose weight and inches too. it sounds hard to believe but i lost 28.5 inches in 9 days and 15 pounds. the usual rate for a 9 day cleanse is average 7 pounds.you can go to my site and look it up. i didn't believe it till i did it and then i choose to sell it. here is the thing...i am not here to sell as matter of fact you can go straight to the site and purchase from someone else if you choose. i just wanted you to know there is a healthy nutritional way to break the cycle of bad eating habits. i am getting a cleanse myself on the 16th because of summer;) and the meds.i just need to flush the toxins out of my body. i feel great after i do a cleanse. if you want more info you can contact me and i will tell you all about it. like i said i am not here to get you to purchase from me i just love to share what has helped me feel great and gave me better self esteem and body image and more energy. good luck to all...i will come back and let you know how my cleanse went;) kris
Posted by: kristen | August 15, 2006 2:06 PM
I love your honesty!! I was doing great way back in January.. lost 29 lbs.. I was soo proud of me that i rewarded my self I stared eating junk food again..allowing myself a soda everyday..well needless to say..I'm right back where I started from...:( but im back at it again..good for you ...tossing that cookie! I went so far as tossing ALL COOKIES!!! AND CANDY!! My children HATE ME!!! I just would rather that kind of thing be a treat..I am willing to spend more money at a convience store for these itmes..(in a kid size pack) so that I dont' have temtations laying around the house!!! Good luck to all of you ladies!! Im back there with you all!!!
Jill
Posted by: Jill | August 16, 2006 6:22 AM
Hi Mrs.Queen mom can you email me on
that clean out. I am very much intrested in that imformation.
Thank you
Bea
Posted by: Beatrice DeLaCruz | August 16, 2006 2:08 PM