Feeling Extra...Large.
Hooray for haiku! You guys are hilarious. I'll decide on prizes shortly - believe me when I tell you that your sense of humor is very, very welcome today.
So, I tried to make a video of my awesome new moves from Cardio Striptease. Just... no. Then, I tried to make a video of my awesome hula hoop technique, and believe me when I say the internet is just not ready for that. Just. Not.
I've been doing "really well" this month, with a overall loss of 6 pounds and daily workouts, and I know that I feel better and move better - but it isn't happening fast enough. I'm not seeing any difference, even though I'm feeling it, and I'm angry about it.
I know all the right things to tell myself. I'm building muscle. I didn't gain it all overnight. My body will never be the same as it was before kids. Slow and steady weight loss is the healthy way to reduce. Choosing whole, healthy foods instead of processed, mystery 'foods' is better for my entire family. Daily exercise can take weeks to make a visable difference.
I just wish my outside appearance matched my inside identity. I wish there was a fast-forward button. My virtual model looks awesome at 130 pounds. I'm months away from that weight at this rate, and while I'm celebrating every little half-pound on the scale, I'm feeling overwhelmed by the idea of 50 pounds.
Well, that and the visual of me hula hooping vigorously. *Shudder*
So, as I approach the end of my Month of Motivation, I do feel like I've made progress. I've learned
that I'm not a runner, at least not yet. I'm able to laugh myself sick while doing virtually any aerobic activity. My family prefers simple meals, and they are starting to enjoy my cooking, now that I've taken it down a notch. I'm a better person when I exercise daily. I believe that the weight will come off, and that it will take good old-fashioned hard work and eating common sense to get it off.
Hi! I still have a long way to go, but I'm down five pounds from my starting weight, and I'm posing like a superheroine . Because really, even though I'm not ready to show you video of my hula exploits just yet, I bet you in the right outfit, five pounds from now, you won't be able to stop me.
Stop with the hoop, Jenny. We all know you can do it, Jenny.
My next goal - 3 pounds lost by Wednesday, July 26th. I can do this. I will do this. Because I can't stop throwing myself in front of cameras.
Comments
Girl... you look good. Seriously. I can totally tell you're rocking the Big Slice panties under that skort.
Posted by: Mir | July 20, 2006 9:49 PM
Jen, don't beat yourself up - you're feeling better and you really inspire me to just keep chipping away at the weight. You'll look back at this entry a month from now, a couple of more pounds lost and won't believe you felt this way. I understand your frustration, but don't be so down on yourself.
Posted by: Sher | July 20, 2006 11:47 PM
Jen, hang in there! The weight will come off. You are on the right track with exercising. Take it one day at a time.
Posted by: Jan | July 21, 2006 5:42 AM
Well I have to tell you. I picked up the South Beach Diet and started it on Monday - I am 8 lbs. lighter today. Isn't that unreal!??? I will only do this restrictive diet for one more week but the difference is the sugar. We (my husband and I) have not a had a granual of sugar. No fruit, no rice, no potatoes, no bread....etc. but eating lots of greens with olive oil and lean meat, eggs, cheese - I'm bored with the menu but really happy with the results. Try cutting out the sugar a little bit and that might speed things up a bit for you. You rock!!
Posted by: Kathy | July 21, 2006 6:54 AM
You look good. I'll bet there's more of a difference than you are able to see in yourself (I know I never see myself the same way that others do....).
Posted by: Julie | July 21, 2006 6:57 AM
I love you, jenny. And I am proud of you.
xoxo
Posted by: the womom | July 21, 2006 8:18 AM
keep it up, i have been struggling too. my eating could be better, but is good. in spite of vigorous exercise at least 5 days a week i continue to gain. which is maddening. but i won't give up, i know my body will work it out soon. one day we will all be skinnies...and videos will be everywhere (here is me brushing my hair...ooh look no flab under arm!!)
Posted by: maria | July 21, 2006 9:38 AM
I'm SO proud of you for what you've done! 5 pounds is NOTHING to sneeze at. In a few months, you'll be way past this roadblock.
6 days! I can't wait to see you!
Posted by: Carmen | July 21, 2006 10:15 AM
I'm proud of you too J! I think you're doing great and think you look beautiful.
The only way out is through - and you're well on your way. You've already learned a lot about what is going to work and what isn't. That alone is a great tool to success.
I'm planning on keeping up with the good eating habits and exercise despite not really working on weight loss. (pregnant?! me? go fig!? ha!)
Posted by: Cookie | July 21, 2006 10:46 AM
Okay, you are a freakin' inspiration. I got on Netflix and found a few DVDs that looked intriguing (including Carmen Electra's Cardio Strip...uh huh. That's for "post baby"). I'm already really watching what I eat, getting my veggies in and trying for lean protein. My OB tells me every month how great I'm doing with the weight gain and how proud she is. (only 4 lbs! wheeee) Did I give her the address for this site? You bet your sweet bippy!! Thank you for the inspiration and laughter!
Posted by: Jenn2 | July 21, 2006 10:47 AM
Jen, I just wish you could see what *I* see when I look at pictures of you. You are gorgeous and you're an inspiration.
P.S. I switched over to South Beach 4 days ago, and I've lost 5 pounds, so Kathy if you want to compare notes or swap recipes, let me know!
Posted by: Ginny | July 21, 2006 12:15 PM